Struggling Faith, Writer Confessions

Just Because You’re Good at Something Doesn’t Mean You Should Do It

Sometimes I think the busier I am the happier I am. Until I start running on empty. I run on empty because I can't keep up with all the busy.

But then I tell myself that the busy is good. I'm pretty good at convincing myself that all the busy is meaningful because I'm helping someone else out or being a blessing when someone needs it. Or it makes me just plain happy. Those seem to be pretty...

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Motherhood, Struggling Faith

To the Weary Mama

“Give me your heart, give me your song, sing it will all your might
Come to the Fountain and you can be satisfied.
There is a peace. There is a love you can get lost inside.
Come to the Fountain and let me hear you testify.”
                       ~NEEDTOBREATH “TESTIFY”

 

Motherhood is a gift that easily gets tainted. I know I am my own worst enemy most times. So much anxiety and...

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Holidays, Writer Confessions

My Two Words for the Year 2016

Back in January I wrote a post about my two words for the year 2016. As I look back and see what my goals were I sort of chuckle to myself. I had a new baby, a new blog, and a bunch of new endeavors I wanted to tackle.

For the most part I think I stayed realistic with myself and self-aware of how I operate when it comes to these resolution things. And honestly, I feel like I stuck with a...

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Struggling Faith

When I Can’t See His Truth

Coffee is gurgling from the corner of my kitchen. I need this cup this morning. Time has slipped through my grasp and I need to stop and breathe today. An overwhelming sigh escapes me. Coffee, Bible and journal in hand, I sit at my kitchen table that has seen many of my tears and fears on numerous ragged, dark early mornings.

As I open my journal, I am guilted by the gap in the dates marked...

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Struggling Faith

What Should I Tell My Children about Trump Being President?

This morning I woke up and dreaded looking at my phone. I knew no matter the winner, I was going to have to reconcile my feelings with the new President of the United States and God. If you would have asked me when I first started writing that I would be writing someday about “Donald Trump as President,” then I would have looked at you and laughed. But here we are. A day full of so many...

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Struggling Faith

It’s Who He Is

That moment when you're totally engrossed in your own life. You feel like you're never going to get that check list marked off. You feel like you are always going going. You feel like you've lost a little bit of something trying to do it all. Maybe you've lost a little bit of time with your spouse. Time with your friends. Time with your kids. Lost a little bit of yourself.

I get these...

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Holidays, Me and My List Problem..., Writer Confessions

Word for the Year 2016: Focus…and Cultivate

I couldn't decide on one word for this year. I had a few goals and thoughts that I was mulling over for a couple of weeks and I just kept coming back to these two words. Focus was the dominant word. Each time I would delve deeper, the word cultivate kept swimming around my thoughts. So there you have it. My two words for the year are FOCUS and CULTIVATE.

Every year I tend to fill the need to...

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Holidays, Me and My List Problem..., Writer Confessions

Crying in the car and being a control nut: What is your top ten list for 2015?

I know many are focusing on New Year's resolutions, but before I jump in to looking ahead, I like to sit back and look at the year and all the things I experienced. I like to make a list, (shocking, I know) and reflect on what had an impact on me as a person. I like to try and narrow down these experiences to ones that seemed most impactful to me. These "experiences" could include a book or...

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Struggling Faith

Does Everything Happen for a Reason?

I've never been one to agree with the phrase "Everything happens for a reason," but I've got to say, I feel like the answer to this is "yes." If you really think about it, clearly the answer is yes. I had been praying for the people in California and the ugliness those families are going through. The heart ache. The pain. I began to be overwhelmed with the feeling of how much hurting there is...

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Marriage, Struggling Faith

Why Can’t I Just Forgive?

Some times when I'm mad at Mike, he might ask me if I'm still mad at him. Sometimes I respond, "I'm only on seventy times two right now!" He knows I'm referring to Peter in the book of Matthew.

"At that point Peter got up the nerve to ask, 'Master, how many times do I forgive a brother or sister who hurts me? Seven?'

Jesus replied, 'Seven! Hardly. Try seventy times seven.' "     Matthew...

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