How quickly I forget my true identity of who I am in Christ.
This morning I woke up and had this overwhelming sense of unworthiness. I wondered if all this writing business I’m attempting really encourages anyone. And I know I’m not alone in this sort of personal value intake.
Husband and I have talked about this before. He too has gone through phases where he feels like his job is “ministry-less.” Finding God in the everyday is challenging when you work around a bunch of machines all the time.
And even as I type this I know that to be a lie. A lie from Satan.
I won’t delve into talking about finding our value as parents. We all know the ongoing questions we face as parents, worrying if we’re teaching our children enough about Christ. That’s another post for another day.
But let’s talk about what we do in the every day. God created us with gifts and talents and drive. We have jobs that come under all sorts of varieties. The engineer. The teacher. The dentist. The cosmetologist. The architect. The parent at home. The mail person.
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And I think if we’re all being honest with ourselves, we can say that at one point or another, we question what we’re doing. We wonder how we can possibly be a witness to someone when we all we do is enter insurance claims all day or work with machines.
Sometimes we might think to ourselves, Well sure, a teacher can easily minister to others, they have young people they work with. Or a doctor can easily show God’s love. I mean they make people feel better for Pete’s sake.
We easily put a value on ourselves and others.
And this morning, I was asking myself that same question. Does my writing really further the kingdom?
Does what I spend my time and energy on bring others closer in their relationship with Christ? Does it draw the wanderer in who wants to know more about this Christ I talk about?
I think it does. But I fail to see it sometimes. I miss the opportunities.
It’s not about who has it easiest. It’s about SEEING the opportunity before us in the day to day.
The problem is I let the world cloud the true answer.
The world flashes “success” in our faces all day every day. I see Joe over on Facebook with his business and he seems to be successful, getting all sorts of engagement and buyers. I heard about Sally getting promoted at work while I’m still in this little cubicle. A friend of mine got a book deal. When is that gonna happen for me? Will it ever?
Is God really using me if I’m not having the same kind of success as Sally?
I think of how the story of Jesus is told with four different books in the Bible. Four different men, four different perspectives God included in His Word to minister to us. He didn’t use just one writer to convey the most precious story known to man. Each writer contributed his unique view of Jesus and the miracles he performed.
God uses a variety of people throughout the Bible with varying backgrounds and He uses 40 something authors over the course of 2,000 years, who wrote in three different languages from three different continents to share the truth with us. Whew.
Worried your place in this world isn’t enough? Take a look at the greatest book ever written and see all of the individuals God used and worked through to minister to his children.
There is room at the table. Room for different styles and strengths. We have an anointing from the Father to be Kingdom Ministers. Right here and now in the every day.
We need all the teachers we can get. We need architects. We need garbage men.
We need all of us.
And yet we so easily focus on the success of someone else.
We see a fellow dentist in town who started their own practice while you’re still waiting on partner. All the while the lady in front of you sharing about her bad day is a missed opportunity calling out to you to speak God’s love into her life.
As you walk into work, your joy gets checked at the door.
When I check my site stats and reader responses, I easily forget the simple power of knowing I am following God’s lead, not Google Analytics. I forget that life is not about likes.
Satan likes nothing more than to badger us with Jealousy as much as possible. He lives to steal our joy.
Let me repeat this for you: You are anointed. You have God’s Spirit and Kingdom living inside you and no profession, no success of Joe Shmo can take that away. Only you can, because you forget to believe it.